In a year my depression has grown bigger and bigger and sucked me finally in. I self harm and think about killing myself day to day. I don't know how to feel about it. I really don't care, I feel empty.
I think this is why people cut themselves because you can deal with physical pain easily. But emotional pain that is what makes people want to die, or live just so they don't hurt others and make them deal with what you deal with.
Previous pinner "self harm *i know i will stop eventually but i am in no hurry to right now*" <--- I completely agree - there's a comfort in SH of control. I know how to control my feelings - having to find another outlet to control things terrifies me.