It ain't easy letting your guard down. don't just open up to people because that's like giving them a piece of your heart, your unbroken heart that is, that you may or may never get back. but truth. is a beautiful thing. Thank God.
This is what it feel like to be with a Narcissistic Sociopath. You constantly have to have your guard up to avoid all attacks. Your survival instincts kick in, and you will do anything to protect yourself from their manipulative tactics.
The most beautiful part to loving a guarded girl is this: When she lets you in, it's not because she needs you. She stopped needing people a long time ago. It's because she wants you. And that—that is the purest love of all. I'm sorry I'm so guarded.