The pretending is a struggle that is neverending. It takes so much strength to keep my guard up, to keep my feelings tucked inside so that no one sees the pain in my heart. You are always on my mind Kelly.
A cycle of depression. It's time to stop pretending that depression, anxiety, etc are all something you can just "snap out of." You wouldn't tell a diabetic to "snap out of" a blood sugar high; you'd give them insulin.