Lighted wall board: The white stripe around the room is raised from the wall and is back lit with rope lighting to create soft light for nighttime feedings and changings. Love this idea! Plus it dr seuss theme!
The pain will change, hopefully become less raw with time and in distance allow perspective impossible now. For now, care for yourself, those around you and be as kind and patient as you can. This is the best life advice I have to give.