Brian you are extremely important to me. You matter to me and you are not alone. I know right now is a very difficult time for you but you are strong, far stronger than your demons. When you look around and can't see anyone there for you that's when you need to close your eyes and feel inside your heart. That's where you will find me. I am not disappointed in you. If I were then I would be holding expectations over you and I don't have any. Look into your heart at your worst moments.