I cant imagine spending my life with someone who doesnt know how to be silly and laugh.and who makes me laugh! Always find a reason to laugh. It may not add years to your life but will surely add life to your years.
Accept that years were wasted on an alcoholic. Accept that you were married to a man who was in denial. Let go of the abuse you took from an alcoholic. Let go of the man who chose drinking over his children and wife. Have faith in what will be.