You never expect anyone to pass away and truthfully you really can't live your life where you spend every moment you are with someone as if they could die tomorrow. You're a human being and that's just not realistic. It makes for a great thought though.
No matter how long it's been there are still times when I think of you and suddenly it gets harder to breathe. Then the tears start flowing and I scream out , why Audrey why , God I miss you so much , what happened to my loving caring wife !