Need to remember this-God didn't give you the strength to get back on your feet only for you to run back to the very thing that knocked you down. It's not a good idea to pick up something God helped you put away. So true.
It seems everyone knows the truth in their own lives but the heart always likes to fight the hardest battles. The heart always looks for reasons beyond logic and understanding, so in the end Acceptance of the truth, takes time.
Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Dont avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You'll be okay. Even if you don't feel okay all the time. This too shall pass. Louis C.