There's two things I judge harshly on. The inability for one to admit when they are wrong, and lack of courage to say I'm sorry. That tells me all I need to know. Because we are all wrong at some point. But not all of us are sorry.
I will never apologize for having too much soul, being too emotional or having too much love to offer. You weren't capable of handling my kind of love and that is your issue not mine. being highly sensitive HSP.
You can have trust and faith but ultimately you've got to wait on people to prove their sincerity and decency through their actions. The promises of others are no more a certainty than a cloud is a guarantee of thunder.
You're not actually crazy, you're just very passionate. You want things to work out, you're loyal and care deeply about the people you care about. Passion is your superpower. Never turn down your powers.